I am going to be keeping up this sudo-blog to keep anyone who happens to read this informed on where my heads at, what i am reading, and thinking. feel free to comment and let me know what you think.
joel_hannigan@yahoo.ca
Monday, December 31, 2007
First Off
Recently I have taken a temporary three month long job position on a marketing project. The next Three months will be an interesting time in my life as this will give more free time to start pursuing my so called career in marketing or something like it. On the surface it looks like a perfect opportunity to get valuable experience in my line of work and plenty of time to find a long term solution.
But after much consideration I have decided to make this period of time (the next three months) a time for retro- intro- and prospective thinking; a time to find who exactly I am as a person, a man, and as a Christian. My life and world for the last couple of years has been one of unrest, indecision, and confusion. Living under false pretense, skirting questions, and having no real conversations is a tiring way to live, to be assured. Years of keeping emotions under the surface, and conversations above have left me feeling as superficial as I probably am. Going from fad to fad, obsession to obsession, mantra to mantra, has left me feeling like a shell of what I was (or at least of what I thought I was).
The next three months is not all about me, its also about everyone else thats in my life and all who are, but i have neglected. Naturally coinciding with a calloused personality is the lack of any real relationships, speaking in terms of both boyfriend-girlfriend and quality friendship terms (That last statement was not directed at anybody particular, i hope that no one is offended by this statement. I have experienced many great friendships but none of the deep, honest type, i hope that makes sense). I ask if you are reading this, wether you know the current me all that well or not, to pray, think, or just let me know that your there in support. I have tried to do this before in private, but accountability is the thing that will keep me going. If your up for a chat, give me a call, email, or message me; let me know.
This is not a cross road in my life; its one man that has come from a marred past standing at the brink of everything and nothingness. By the end of these three months I will have a better understanding of what I am designed for in my personal life, career, and spiritual life. Please do not look at this like a new years resolution, it’s something much more than that. Resolutions are made to be broken, this is being made to put me back together.
Life is a journey, a path. All journeys have a destination; this one’s myself.
Together in God’s love
Joel
But after much consideration I have decided to make this period of time (the next three months) a time for retro- intro- and prospective thinking; a time to find who exactly I am as a person, a man, and as a Christian. My life and world for the last couple of years has been one of unrest, indecision, and confusion. Living under false pretense, skirting questions, and having no real conversations is a tiring way to live, to be assured. Years of keeping emotions under the surface, and conversations above have left me feeling as superficial as I probably am. Going from fad to fad, obsession to obsession, mantra to mantra, has left me feeling like a shell of what I was (or at least of what I thought I was).
The next three months is not all about me, its also about everyone else thats in my life and all who are, but i have neglected. Naturally coinciding with a calloused personality is the lack of any real relationships, speaking in terms of both boyfriend-girlfriend and quality friendship terms (That last statement was not directed at anybody particular, i hope that no one is offended by this statement. I have experienced many great friendships but none of the deep, honest type, i hope that makes sense). I ask if you are reading this, wether you know the current me all that well or not, to pray, think, or just let me know that your there in support. I have tried to do this before in private, but accountability is the thing that will keep me going. If your up for a chat, give me a call, email, or message me; let me know.
This is not a cross road in my life; its one man that has come from a marred past standing at the brink of everything and nothingness. By the end of these three months I will have a better understanding of what I am designed for in my personal life, career, and spiritual life. Please do not look at this like a new years resolution, it’s something much more than that. Resolutions are made to be broken, this is being made to put me back together.
Life is a journey, a path. All journeys have a destination; this one’s myself.
Together in God’s love
Joel
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